tiistai 5. elokuuta 2008

Perfection


Perfection is subjective. Some people see a really thin body as ‘perfect’, others’ ideal is a more muscular form. There are even people out there who think obesity is perfection. There are as many opinions as there are people.

My perfection is something that I can’t quite describe with words. It’s happiness, balance, beauty, achieving one’s goals, ambition… My ideal self is 10kg thinner than I am now, she’s the top of her class, she works hard but has fun also, she’s got lots of friends, she always looks pretty, and she sets herself big goals and achieves them… Basically my ideal self is the kind of girl that people look at and wonder how she can do all that and still be so perfect. I know I can be that person if I just want it enough.

I made a little list of how I’m going to improve my life this coming autumn:

* wake up earlier

* keep my apartment clean

* keep my nails pretty

* eat less & healthy

* study harder

* meet new people

* do my best to heal my leg

That’s about it. I know I can be whatever I want to be, it just takes some work. I just want to get my life under control again…

What I find frustrating is that many people complain about how they can never achieve this and that kind of body, can never get that dream job, can never make enough money. I think they’re just lazy. I mean, life’s all about choices and the choices you make determine what your life’s going to be like. Not all choices are easy and sometimes you need to work hard to get what you want but nevertheless it is possible. It is possible to get the body you’ve always dreamt of or get a job you love.

I got to thinking about perfection and its definition today because I realized that I’m nowhere close to being happy about how my life’s turned out. I’m not happy with the way I look, my grades are not good enough, and my self-discipline is not good enough. I really need to stop wasting my life and try harder to be the best I can be.

The picture above is soo old and apparently very popular among proanas but I thought it fit this post really well… Below is Kate Moss, now she’s perfect.

1 kommentti:

nadja kirjoitti...

i feel almost exactly like you do, but when i read what you write i somehow feel that i want to tell you that you ARE good enough, that perfection is an illusion and that NOBODY is perfect, or supposed to be perfect!

it's so hard. i wish we could just feel okay about ourselves, all of us.

take care!